I have a job

Next school year, I will be teaching music in a private elementary school. I am very excited. I get to pick my own curriculum (or make it up). This will be a great opportunity for me to use my teaching skills in a bigger setting than private studio teaching. I don't know if I'll keep any piano students, so for that aspect, I'm quite sad. I love to see individuals catch on to music concepts and soar. Wish me luck and God's blessing in this new endevour.

I got a present, finally

I have always heard of cats bringing presents to their homes, but have only experienced it in small degrees. For example, Tarzan has only brought us two snakes. I thought he wasn't the hunter his breed proclaims he is.

Yesterday, he finally brought home his first rodent. How nice. He begged and begged to go out so I let him. Not very long later, he stood at the back door but didn't cry. I looked in his mouth, and there was a vole. He stood there and I yelled through the door, "Oh, thank you, Tarzan, for your wonderful and generous gift." And I wouldn't let him in! Of course he can't come in, the rodant is STILL ALIVE!

For a bit, he sat there and then finally started playing with it. In short, he ended up tearing off half the head and leaving all of it for me to clean. How nice. Today, he is begging to go out hoping to catch another one. But, he doesn't like walking in the snow. No rodents for me today. Shucks.

Not depressing

Elaine said I am way too depressing in my blogs. Sorry Elaine!

Here's a fun update. Elaine did my hair yesterday and it is fire red in places! I love it. (I just hope it doesn't fade too quick.) I always feel so great after getting new colour. Thanks bunches little sis, you are the best! And you're my favourite.

Friends

I got an e-mail from Ganine about the differences between simple friends and real friends. It was one of those "Pass this on to all your friends, including me" things. I generally don't forward much of anything on to anyone. As I read the list, however, I felt somewhat sad. I started thinking, who are my simple friends? Who are my real friends? And I realized that most people in my life are superficial friends. I pretend to know you by reading your blogs or looking at your Facebook status', but am I really your friend, be it simple or real?

What can I do to change that?

What kind of friends do you have in your life?

Perfect Birthday

I turned 35 last week and had the best birthday.

It snowed, I got to volunteer in Evan's classroom, Bryan made a fantastic dinner and even surprised me with a few guests for dessert. (thank you) Many people sent me a quick "Happy Birthday" via Facebook and some people even took the extra effort to call me.

I don't have any strange feelings about turning 35 and honestly, I didn't think I'd get many, if any, greetings for my birthday. So, to see that some people really care for me made my day. Thanks to you all.

I like birthdays.

So, it's been about a year since I left LDS church and I have to admit, there are some things I miss and some things I don't.


Don't Miss:

• 3 hours of church.

• guilt.

• having to worry about what to wear.

• Losing one day a week. Couldn't do anything (it seems) on Sunday

Do Miss:

• Having a reason to visit with women (visiting teaching)

• Being the reason for a visit (visiting teaching)

• Mostly everyone knowing my face AND name.

• Primary Music

• neighbourhood "friends"

I've been thinking about this list for quite awhile, unfortunately, I am not a writer and this is the most we get for now.

insights about me

I had some insights about me that I would like to share.
First off, I'm not a person who really bonds with people. I mean, like a real strong bond. I've never had any "feelings" that one of my friends or close family members needs something - and I'm the one to deliver it.
I don't have any friends from my public school days. I didn't have many "close" friends when I was in elementary school and the friends I made in jr. high and high school have faded into my empty yesterdays. When I went to my 10 year class reunion, I said hello to what were my friends, but was honest enough to not take any contact information. We all knew we wouldn't keep track of each other. If we didn't keep in contact during the last 10 years, why would we do it in the next 10?
I made some friends in college but don't know where any of them are. In fact, I don't think I could even list a first & last name of 10 of them.
I have not felt like I need to mourn loosing family friendships, either. I thought I was friends with some of the Jensens, but don't keep in close contact with any one. Yeah, I know where they all live but don't stive to keep personal contact with them. I think that watching what they do on Facebook or on blogs is knowing a little of who they are.

Second, I don't like being alone. But, I always knew this. I like having lots of people around me. I think it gives me the false sense of belongingness. Like I am close to these people. Maybe they'll like me more.

So why is it that I'm not closely bonded to people, but I like lots of people?
Does it really matter?
These are just a few insights.